dear Father,

I hope your fine, I am okay myself I can do much better. I am writing you this letter so that you could help me with a situation I am in. But before I do; I just want to say thank you for everything you done.

For protecting me throughout the years. The good and the bad seasons. The 22months I spend behind bars. The tears of missing people. The laughter during visits, the joy of having to meet people who became family. The dark when the devil tried to label me as a “failure”, the taste of bad food what was good enough to keep me alive and full, the experience of learning from others, the patience of understanding from other perspectives but the most THANK YOU i would say is … for me NOT to forget who I am and giving me another chance to do it even better.

Back to it, i had a question which was; when do you answer my prayers. I just remembered that its already been answered oh Lord you are the everlasting God

im sorry, but goodbye pride

I was just 20 and I am physically and mentally stable. yet I know to hurt someone, by not thinking about the consequences nor myself. I was being selfish, I was proud, I was boasting and what did I achieve?

Well that is what I will explain. I have had tons of questions about how prison was, what I did on a daily basis, what kind of people I met. But I come to realize that not many asked about HOW the person I hurt must have felt, IF I was remorseful. people are caught up with the exciting stuff, what I experienced, by telling stories, adding salt and pepper. Well either we like it or not we ALL have feelings.

this is a short message to everyone especially you. I am sorry!

pride KILLS. pride DESTROYS. pride STEALS. throw it AWAY it is expired and just rotten you, it destroyed me, stole from me but never killed me, that is why I am alive today! and I am not afraid of confessing my sins, I am not afraid to apologize, I am not afraid to accept and move on. just because of pride.

look it starts simple, ONE minute you are cool, then there follows a gossip, you get upset, and then get pushed by one or two people who add salt and pepper(destroying your mind), you then feel like you need to take action(destroying your mind). You take action and regret it. but because of pride you act like you are cool and then it starts to rot(stealing), you continue living a lie and eventually you die(killed, not physically). you die not forgiven, you die not knowing the truth, you die not accepting that you aren’t perfect yourself. you die not knowing who Christ really is to you.

if your at this stage don’t think its late, The GOD we know can wake up the dead. He can make you rise and be born again! never give up.

‘forgive- ‘

What is your status?

first of all, we made it to October 2015 ( Thank You Jesus )!

So looking back at the beginning of this year, what did you achieve so far? what are you yet to do?

I mean we all have dreams, and goals. In our minds we know what we want, or where we are trying to be. We all want to make it in life. but yet sometimes our dreams seem to LARGE to accomplish, too BIG to achieve. But we are sometimes forgetting that it is possible. Its all possible. you know if you follow mankind you can achieve little to none, but if you put your trust into our Heavenly Father, He can use man kind to make you accomplish all you dream of?! It seems almost impossible thinking about it.

So I will use myself as an example (Which I will often do)

You see, I am 24 and I do have my way of serving the Lord. I am not perfect and never will be, but I try to become as close to perfect as I can be. Attending church does not make you better than the one who does not, BUT serving the Lord with all your heart in his HOUSE is what He wants. I attend church, and I was back into my church I knew of growing up. When I moved to London I started attending another church which was in 2010, I became so fond of the church and I grew in the church. Since I came back in 2014 to the Netherlands instead of me looking for the church, I got so lazy so I decided to just go to the older church I grew up in. Not knowing that as a child you attend church because your parents attend does not make you a Christian. I am now older, and being a mother, I take my daughter to church every Sunday. now being older I realised that I did not feel comfortable in this church I grew up with. I thought okay, maybe its just all in my head, and I continued every Sunday for months, until I got various signs. I must say I quite the church and It was not easy. I then decided to look for the church branch I attended in London and since I went to that church, WOW do I feel at home. The first service just got me like. WOW!

I must say I do not regret it ONE bit. What I am trying to say is, The holy Spirit does speak to us when we ask for it. I did not directly ask God to direct me, but because of prayers of faith, and asking to draw closer to Him, he then decided to show me things which will lead me to draw closer to Him somehow. And He did! Most of us will go church and after hours even forget the preachings, which was so me! I mean you should be in church writing notes, Not forgetting what your pastor, reverend, Bishop or Evangalist said.

I have gotten to know myself, I mean I started to listen to myself more, as I did ask God to direct me. Anytime I ask and I start doubting my decision I know it will be the wrong one. Some get it through dreams, visions or other ways. I am still working on my gift but yet he Speaks to me, just by Asking! What are you doing today? What is your status?!

Have you asked for your gift? and with that I mean the gift of doing Gods work, by drawing people nearer to the Heavenly Father. You will face struggles, and remember the closer you get to the kingdom the more the devil will be on your toes. Do not get scared. Know your status! have you seen what the world is turning into whenever you watch the news? Be the different person. Did you know anytime you bring a person closer to God the angels dance and rejoice and that there is a gift waiting for you to open? Make sure you build your paradise. By starting now before it is too late.

Know your status.